Have you ever tried to be still. I mean honestly sat still, quiet, calm without sound or distraction. I notice that in my life being still is the furthest thing from my reality. I have been struggling the past several weeks trying so hard to find the path God wants me to go on. I have felt like I wasted so much time, energy, and money and I still do notn know what I want; or more importantly what God wants from me.
During this time I have felt stress, anxiety, fear, anger, frustration and resentment and mostly all towards myself. Is this what God wants for me? Is this how it should feel if God is leading me in the path he has for. While I do feel like there us a direction he is leading me towards I am not sure that the timing is right just yet. But I have fought with myself and God trying to figure it out.
During a sermon this past week a pastor quoted a scripture we all know but so often move over so quickly. “Be still and know that I am God”….let me write that again…”Be still and know that I am God”. What does that even mean? How do you be still in the midst of all the responsibilities. For me that means many different things and it will be different for each one of us.
For me in this moment is me in this moment it means stopping, stopping to breathe, examine, and reconnect. Be still means knowing that unless I stop I will never hear God’s voice or be able to feel the extent of the peace he wants for me to have. After the crazy that has been this year I think God is calling me to simply be still.
So as hard as that is for me to take a step back. I am going to, with God’s help learn to enjoy the phase I am in right now. Not trying to unravel what is in my future. I don’t know how long God wants me to be still but until I feel his nudge I am going to learn how to embrace those two simple yet so powerful words. BE STILL.
There was a scripture that struck home with me along with the one from Psalms. It is from Romans and says,
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May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit” (Romans 15:13).
When we learn to be still I believe we can find our hope and peace.